I can't believe it's 2015!  We livin' in the future baby ;)

After the crazy tumultuous 2014 I had, I honestly just don't give a fuck in 2015!  I think it'll be awesome if it's awesome and it'll still be aight if it's not.  That's just how I'm feelin'

Some things I can work on I'm gonna work on.  Make sure I take care of myself and get the things I need to get done did.  Other things I'm gonna let slide cause if I spend a lot of time trying to figure out something usually it's not worth the damn trouble.  That's my pessimistic optimism or optimistic pessimism...

I can't count the number of times I've mentally applauded someone for speaking the truth even as I lacked the courage to do so.  Here's to everyone who speaks the truth even if their voice shakes.

1. “You say you love rain, but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining. You say you love wind, but when it comes you close your windows. So that’s why I’m scared when you say you love me.” -Bob Marley

1. “He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” -Bob Marley

Dear Human Dear Human: You’ve got it all wrong. You didn’t come here to master unconditional love. That is where you came from and where you’ll return. You came here to learn personal love. Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love. Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love. Infused with divinity. Lived through the grace of stumbling. Demonstrated through the beauty of… messing up. Often. You didn’t come here to be perfect. You already are. You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous. And then to rise again into remembering. But unconditional love? Stop telling that story. Love, in truth, doesn’t need ANY other adjectives. It doesn’t require modifiers. It doesn’t require the condition of perfection. It only asks that you show up. And do your best. That you stay present and feel fully. That you shine and fly and laugh and cry and hurt and heal and fall and get back up and play and work and live and die as YOU. It’s enough. It’s Plenty.

I'm so sad that one of my best friends is moving back to Afghanistan :( Seriously the most generous, kind, thoughtful person I know who ignores all my flaws and thinks I'm awesome every day, and somehow always 'gets' me. It's so rare to find people like that that I just want to latch on to them and never let go. I'm cheering myself up by telling myself that we will always be friends despite the distance :)

There is a quote by the Dalai Lama that says: "It is not enough to be compassionate. You must act. There are two aspects to action. One is to overcome the distortions and afflictions of your own mind, that is, in terms of calming and eventually dispelling anger. This is action out of compassion. The other is more social, more public. When something needs to be done in the world to rectify the wrongs, if one is really concerned with benefitting others, one needs to be engaged, involved." I would say that not only is that true, it also applies to other aspects of life as well. It's not enough to be _____ on the inside, it is also essential to act ______ on the outside, thereby letting people know through your behavior what you stand for and value, and also attracting like minded people toward you. It's something that I constantly struggle with and I hope that one day I wont feel so much that there are parts of me that no one else can see, that I can feel whole in my identity. I think this is easier for some than others. Maybe fear or conditioning is what holds people back. Another thing I must try harder to do is make less assumptions. There is that saying when you assume you make an ass out of u and me. Well, in general assumptions tend to lead to misunderstandings, and although I do not like misunderstandings I have been lazy in the past to try and double check or ask people for specifics when I should. I want to seem like I understood the first time, but instead I make assumptions about what they think or want when these are neither fair to me or them. I will work harder to be better about that in the future so I don't get myself into uncomfortable situations. I am currently listening to the audiobook "Living With Intention" by Lynne McTaggart which talks about how your intentions affect the world. I highly would recommend it.

新年快乐

Da dun dun/the sun done/yep the sun done/came up but we still up in a dungeon/Da dun dun/yep in London/Competition? Why yes, I would love some <3

新年快乐 everybody :) Shake off the stress and negative karma left over from the previous year, and sink into the fresh air of the new one. Here's to meeting awesome new friends, crazy exams and even crazier adventures, an apocalypse in December, new president in November, two solar/lunar eclipses. This year is gonna be off the hook. Year of the dragon, holla!

Seriously though, peace love health and abundance to you in the new year.